Change

"Just because everything is different doesn't mean anything has changed." ~Irene Peter

I am a big believer in change. I'm not a big fan of change, but I am aware that it happens. Have you ever heard the saying that something is a "double-edged sword?" Well change is one of those double-edged swords. In some cases you would rather everything stay the same and then there are times that you would kill for things to be different. Change never works the way that you think it will, that is one thing that life has taught me. When you think that things are going to change dramatically they never do and when you think everything will be okay, that's when it blows up in your face. I think the biggest example about how I thought that change would be different would be a story about my best friend and I. When I told Ashley that I was gay I thought our relationship would totally change for the worst. I know what you're thinking, "If she is a true friend then why would being honest and truthful be a bad thing?" Did I happen to mention that Ashley was my girlfriend at the time? I think that might answer that question. Anyhow... so I had to tell my girlfriend and the person that I love that I am attracted to men. I thought she was going to hate me, never want to see me again for as long as we lived, and even slander my name, but she didn't. She opened her arms and hugged me. Yes, she was hurt, but she was happy for me. All she cared about was my happiness and for that I want to thank her. Now, we are still as close as ever. We talk to each other on a daily basis and our friendship is ever growing. I know for a fact that if Ashley hadn't been so understanding about the whole situation that I still wouldn't be able to look at myself in the mirror. Ashley, if you read this (and I know you will because I'm going to tell you to... ha ha) I just want to tell you thank you for everything. You are one of my truest friends and even though some things have changed, they have all changed for the better.