He is still there

“Life is one of those precious fleeting gifts, and everything can change in a heartbeat."~ Unknown

Isn't it funny how everything can change overnight? When you finally feel like you got a hold of everything and everything is going smoothly, change hits you like a ton of bricks. The last couple of days have been extremely rough for me. People have always told me that if you haven't had a hard time yet just wait because it is coming, well my time is unfortunately here. I'm not going to go into details, I don't want this to be a pity party, I just want to tell you what I have learned. Sometimes things change. People change, situations change, friendships changes, everything changes. Yes, it is hard at first and can cut you really deep but eventually everything gets better. Sometimes you can go back to the ways things were and sometimes it's better to start fresh but either way it gets better. I have also learned, well it is something I always knew but never had to fall back on, that regardless of what happens you will always have someone. God never leaves you. When you think you have been abandoned by all your loves ones, He is still there. When times are hard and you don't see a way up, He is still there. He will never abandon you, He will never blame you, He will not judge your mistakes, and He will always love you.

The last couple of months have been a trial in my life. I have been trying to figure out who I am and what my purpose here is and the last week has helped me in ways I didn't expect. A huge part of my life as been taken away from me and with that a large section of my heart has gone also. Times are rough and they only get harder but with God all things will be made right. I have total faith in Him that He will help me in my current situation. I'm sure that this will turn into a starting anew. Things will never go back to the way they used to be, and I don't believe I want them to. I have always been afraid of change and I don't think that I will ever be a fan but sometimes change is essential. I am getting used to the changes that life trows at me and I am putting all my faith in the God that I love and adore.

I want to thank those involved in this current situation. Each one of you have made a lasting impression in my life and I love you for that. The memories that I have shared with you will always be things I cherish the most and for those I am grateful. My prayers and love go out to every single one of you and I hope these current changes benefit you as much as they have benefited me. Thank you for helping me get back into the place I needed to be, emotionally, physically and spiritually. I love you all with all my heart and there will not be a day that goes by that I don't think of you.

I also want to thank the people who have supported me these past couple of days. I couldn't help but shed some tears and I'm sure there are more tears to come and I am glad that I had y'all there to cry on. I love each one of you and that will also never change.